11012011 - 11.1.11 , aku tabah.

macam biasa, kena bangun pagi sebab pagi ni ada class. tapi hari ni istimewa sikit, sebab gaya tarikh pon macam istimewa jugak kan. kena bangun lagi awal sikit sebab ada photo shoot untuk gambar class. classmates dah la ramai gila. memang hiruk-pikuk la masa nak menyusunnya tu. masuk class lambat 15minit. semua berpusu-pusu dengan semangat masuk class.

macam biasa, balik class jalan kaki. kali ni balik jalan kaki sorang-sorang, sambil melihat keindahan alam. nasib baik tak hujan. berusaha menaiki anak tangga hingga ke tingkat 4. penat.

kisah malang bermula.

bukak beg, kunci bilik tak ada. damn. roomates tak balik sebab mereka ada lab, untuk menjiamtkan masa, mereka tak balik. apa ke sengal la aku tak bawak kunci. nak kata rushing, malam tadi siap kemas bag, sebab dah tak tau nak buat apa. haihh. berfikir kejap, kalau pergi mahallah office confirm dah tutup, sebab lunch hour. nak tumpang bilik orang, lama sangat la pulak. tambahan pula ada kerja kena buat. roomates balik lab pukul 5. tengok gaya cuaca macam belum nak hujan. tekad pergi KOS balik. tumpang bag dekat bilik jiran. bawa handphone je.

perjalanan bermula.

menuruni anak tangga dari tingkat 4 dengan kesal. sampai bawah je, sheeeet!! seliper jamban! -________-"
whatever lah, kalau tergelincir ke apa ke hadapi dengan senyuman jela, sebab seliper jamban ni dah haus.
dari jauh nampak segerombolan junior jalan kaki nak balik. semua menghala ke mahallah etc, aku je menghala ke KOS. nak pandang pelik pulak. engkau apasal? adorable nau ke aku? -.- terus menuju ke KOS, masuk WACKOS, mereka tak ada, masuk MUSOLLA cari-cari tak jumpa, rupanya tersorok. borak dalam termengah sedikit, amek kunci, blah.

perjalanan pulang bermula.

rasa sedih. emo pulak tiba-tiba. harap maklum, aku kalau penat, exhausted gila, memang senang nak menangis. lagi-lagi kalau sorang-sorang. nak cakap apa pon cakap la. tak tergugat pun lah. dulu pernah menangis sakan sorang-sorang dekat pekeliling. ye, aku ada beberapa kisah sedih yang agak sadis. sumpah penat! rasa nak duduk kejap bawah pokok. pak guard naik van ni bukan nak tumpangkan. cis!! saman orang je tau. tiba-tiba ada sister naik kereta stop, nak tumpangkan, tapi aku senyum dan geleng-geleng kepala. bukan sombong, tapi masa tu tengah mata bergenang, malu lahhh. lagi sekali, tabah menaiki tangga sampai tingkat 4, amek bag dekat bilik jiran, bukak pintu bilik, bukak tingkap. minum air. penat!!

hikmah :
a. mungkin Allah nak suruh aku exercise lebih dengan cara berjalan kaki ulang alik pergi KOS.
b. mungkin Allah nak suruh aku lebih bersabar dalam menghadapi ujian hidup
c. mungkin Allah nak bagi peringatan supaya aku jangan tinggal-tinggal kunci lagi
d. mungkin Allah nak aku rasa susah sikit dan berusaha
e. mungkin Allah nak aku tau, aku tabah.

ye, aku tabah.

=')

when people you know become people you knew.

how you can walk right past them, as if they have never been a part of your life.

how you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can even barely look at them.

sadness.

06122010 - butterflies

not less than an hour from now, the result for last final exams will release. let us see how it goes. since i am SO independent during the examinations period *my own definition of independent btw* i am quite worry about the result. but i have told my mind to be prepared for whatever it may comes. it's my efforts of course. so, lets pray for the best! :)

i won't check it at 4pm sharp, course i don't believe this IIUM website system. -___-"

24112010 - teenage dream

last night, a friend of mine have sent me a text.

"Kalau rasa sedih, pandanglah langit. ingatlah Tuhan masih ada. kalau rasa resah, renunglah dasar hati. yakinlah Allah mencipta kesudahannya, dan kalau rasa tersisih, lihatlah purnama di malam hari. yakinlah Allah tak akan biarkan kita sendirian mengharungi cabaran hidup ini."

well, kalau tak ada purnama nak tengok apa? hehe.

semalam ym dengan sorang kawan. sedih sangat katanya. hurm, agaknya ada ke orang yang suka dengan sedih. of course, saya pon tak suka. like seriously serious tak suka. tapi, sedar atau tak kadang-kadang perasaan sedih ni jugalah yang menyedarkan kita. tentang salah silap, kekuasaan Allah dan sebagainya. Masakan tidak, rasanya baru je kita rasa gembira semalam, beberapa hari lepas, atau pon berminggu-minggu lepas. tapi tiba-tiba sesuatu yang kita tak duga terjadi. kalau itu yang kita mahukan, mesti lah tak sedih kan. macam mana pulak dengan perubahan itu perubahan yang kita tak sangka langsung? mesti rasa gundah gulana. (sangat memahami konon, heh).

sudah terjatuh, baru terngadah. dalam dunia ni ada macam-macam sebab manusia bersedih. kalau betul caranya, kesedihan itu lah yang membantu kita menjadi lebih kuat dalam mengharungi kehidupan akan datang. Allah maha adil. Dia tahu kemampuan hambaNya. Dia takkan biarkan hambaNya buat sesuatu yang hambaNya tak mampu. jadi, kita insan lemah ni, kenalah percaya dengan kekuasaan Allah. mungkin kita tertanya-tanya, kenapalah susah nak dapat apa yang kita nak. macam-macam dugaan kita jumpa. sebenarnya Allah nak uji kita tu. yelah, kita minta macam-macam, tapi deserve ke kita nak dapat semua tu? maka, sebab tu lah Allah uji kita. kalau kita bersabar, dan berdoa, insyaAllah, Allah dengar. ntah-ntah, dapat yang lagi baik dari apa yang kita minta tu.

kepada kawan-kawan yang bersedih hati, berduka lara tu, percayalah dengan kekuasaan Allah. Allah maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk awak. percayalah. redha dengan ketentuanNya.Allah dah rancang sesuatu untuk awak. hidup memang byk up and down. itu yang menjadikan kita seseorang. untuk sedapkan hati sendiri, fikir lah yang positive. benda yang menggembirakan pasti ada nanti.

=)

--> ini sekadar kata-kata untuk dikongsi dengan kawan-kawan. dan juga diri sendiri. tak seberapa pun. anda si bijak pandai mesti boleh elaborate panjang lagi kan. hehe. laa tahzan yaw!

22112010 - lakon layar

it's holiday by the way.

semester break, yeah.

i've planned this and that.

and think it might be so much fun.

giddy up and so on.

but, so far i think it's not going to be like that.

abnormal somewhere.

hope it comes to an end point very soon.

i wonder, what kind of animal is this eh?

it's been years, but i still can't figure out.

10112010 - wednesday

IMMUNOLOGY

SBM 3033

NOV, 10 2010

2.30PM

KOM EXAM HALL

SEAT NO. 106

ALL THE BEST NURDHIYA IZYAN!!

YOU CAN DO IT!!

=>

before i sleep

Kuantan sangat sejuk sekarang. Semua pon passive je rasa.

Tengok comforter rasa tergoda, tapi terpaksa persetankan je perasaan tu.

Katil memang tak berani nak try baring ke apa ke, takut terlelap,langsung jihad.

Katil hanya jadi tempat letak notes yang menimnbun. Tak cukup ruang dekat meja belajar.

Kalau letak semua atas meja, nanti siku terlanggar, sayap jadi kecik.

Tak berapa nak suka lah.

Penyelesaiannya, tebar je semua atas katil, senang.

Setiap kali exam besar,mesti kuantan nak cuaca suram-suram.

Mempengaruhi mood juga tu secara tak langsung.

Tadi mandi, memang menggigil-gigil. Tak tipu punya.

Kipas pon buka no.3 je. Biasa tu no.5 pon xcukup sejuk.

Itulah dia kuantan. Bila dah sejuk, sampai bone marrow pon passive kesejukan.

Bila dah panas, jalan kaki nak pergi class pon macam nampak tak nampak jalan je.

Sebab mata tak boleh bukak. Silau.

Esok nak study pathology. Dengan biostatistics sikit.

Lepas tu terus menerus hadap immunology.

Semoga berjaya wahai nurdhiya izyan binti mohd radza!!

05112010 - the journal @__@

     Delayed-type hypersensitivity (DTH) is defined as the recruitment of T cells into tissues to be activated by antigen-presenting cells to produce cytokines that mediate local inflammation. CD8+ T cells are now known to mediate DTH responses in allergic contact dermatitis, drug eruptions, asthma, and autoimmune diseases. This inflammatory effector capability of CD8+ cytotoxic T cells was previously poorly recognized, but there is now considerable evidence that these diseases may be mediated by CD8+ DTH. The difference between CD8+ T cells and CD4+ T cells mediating DTH relates to the molecular mechanisms by which antigens are processed and presented to the T cells. Antigens external to the cell are phagocytosed and processed for presentation on MHC class II molecules (eg, HLA-DR) to CD4+ T cells. In contrast, internal cytoplasmic antigens are processed by the endogenous pathway for presentation on MHC class I molecules (eg, HLA-A, -B, and -C) to CD8+ T cells. External allergens can also enter the endogenous pathway to be presented to CD8+ T cells. These include many contact sensitizers, chemical and protein respiratory allergens, viral antigens, metabolic products of drugs, and autoantigens. The resulting CD8+ T-cell response explains the role of CD8+ T-cell DTH mechanisms in allergic contact dermatitis, asthma, drug eruptions, and autoimmune diseases.

so, this is the abstract of the journal that was given by our immunology lecturer as a souvenir before immunology paper this 10th nov. 8 pages of journal is a lot actually. and i have to do a summary about the reading in not more than 3 pages. macam senang kan? haa, you try first. i generously give you the link for full text version. basically, it is all about immune system, MHC class I, MHC class II, autoimmune system, asthma, allergy, CD4+, CD8+. you have this things in your body, no matter who you are.

 here, http://www.jacionline.org/article/S0091-6749(99)70489-6/fulltext 

please, don't hesitate to visit and READ. it is amazingggg! how i define amazing? you take a look at it first, then you know how amazing it is. i did it for 4hours. of course with some facebook-ing, blog-walking, eating, bbm-ing, etc. 

my eyes seriously can't stand reading pages of words anymore. after struggling reading 4 articles during the exam, and just now the journal, my eyes, my neck, my shoulder became like #$(&%@^&!!  (i don't know the name of the feeling). 

at least for a week. (notes for exam is acceptable. well, terpaksa).

i bet you wouldn't read this journal. if anyone of you did it, you tell me. i will give you special reward,hehe. 

i know, i know this is B-O-R-I-N-G

i won't post something like this again. i try! after all, this is my field. no matter how boring it is, i still have to be friend with them. with bright smile of course. -___________-"

--> i went to KOS (kuliyyah of science) right after the exam to check my marks for immunology quiz. surprisingly, i got quite high marks for that quiz!! yeay for dhiya, yeayy!!! :D i never had such high marks for quizzes so far this semester. ALHAMDULILLAH :") now i'm eager to study immunology for final exam. ahh, xsangka~~

04112010 - English for Academic Purposes

the exam is today. Nov 4, 2010, KOM exam hall, 3pm. seat no. 105

3pm? why so late? haiyohhhhh, tak rasa ke pukul 3 sangat lambat? 2.30pm okay lagi. ni pukul 3??? dah la kena buat essay. kena fikir banyakkkk. nanti ade 4 articles. yes, EMPAT! kena baca semua, lepas tu buat 1 summary, lepas tu buat 1 argumentative essay. kena guna at least 3 techniques out of 4. tak rasa complicated ke? so far, dah tanya ramai kawan-kawan, senior-senior yang dah ambil paper ni. dalam ramai-ramai tu, baru jumpa 2 orang je yang dapat siapkan semua. the rest tak siap. tak rasa miserable ke? semoga petang ni keluar tajuk yang simple-simple, articles yang senang nak faham, lantas dapat siap kan semua. cuak!


EAP ni university requirement subject je. tapi 3 credit hour. dah macam core subject pulak. tak apa, dah biasa ade subject-subject macam ni dekat UIA ni. setiap sem pon ada. 

oh EAP

03112010 - twenties girl

i wish i could have Lara's great aunt Sadie.

things will get a little bit easier.

i wish. 

yes, i wish.

ohh, sungguh bosan..

baca notes pathology dari tadi tak habis-habis lagi..

bulu mata pon dah 2 helai gugur dan melekat dekat cermin cermin mata (cermin mata punya cermin)

kurang productive betul hari ni. tak suka tak suka tak suka.

lapar lapar lapar. tak makan lagi hari ni kecuali minum milo.

milo ialah minuman rasmi masa-masa peperiksaan ni. 

semalam semangat nak study pathology, tapi hari ini kurang semangat, ohh mengapa~~~

sesungguhnya banyak gila benda nak kena baca pathology ni, kalau baca dan terus faham kan senang.

tak payah nak ulang banyak kali, tenung notes macam nak tembus kertas tu. jimat masa.

karyolysis, pyknosis, karyorrhexis, necrosis, metastasis. semua sis-sis ni menguji kesabaran minda.

tak mengapa, positive. kan kena berfikiran positive sepanjang masa. 

kalau study kat sini, mungkin boleh dapat A solid.

sumpah tenang, lawa, privacy, romantic tempat ni.

romantic ade kaitan dengan study ke? -__-

that's my head

i miss this place the most.

walaupon terpaksa berjalan meredah hutan selama berjam-jam, terserempak dengan pelbagai saiz biawak, jatuh terduduk dua kali sebab kaki tersangkut akar pokok yang meliar, dehydrated, lapar nak mam, penat gils, kaki sakit dan segalanya. tapi tak apa.

 demi tempat lawa macam ni, tempat tenang macam ni, tempat superb macam ni.

2112010 - sunny day

today's weather is good. yeah, still in exam fever. for me, examination is special. special here means a lot. it might be positive thing, as well as negative thing. after all, i think positive and negative always compliment to each other. even though one with something good and another one with something not so good, but they will be together no matter what. how sweet they are. well, exam period is miserable, seriously.

1. that's the time when suddenly i feel like tidying up my room
2. that's the time when suddenly i feel like i have and i need to do my laundry. (sebab baju semua dah nak habis, so kena juga basuh baju)
3. that's the time when suddenly i feel like sidai baju sgt membazir masa
4. that's the time when suddenly my friends will ask me to go somewhere, makan sama-sama. (in term of release tension?)
5. that's the time when suddenly the internet's mood is good. the connection is so fast and furious!
6. that's the time when i found interesting blog to be read. (yes, i like reading blog. interesting one i meant)
7. that's the time when bloghopping is so much fun.
8. that's the time when i feel like blogging and writing benda tah apa-apa. takde motif langsung.
9. that's the time when i suddenly my roomates have new movies, series, etc. (like we got married. sumpah comel gila)
10. that's the time when i suddenly have the mood to do "research" (nothing to do with my exams. it's about random thing,handbags, make up, clothes, etc)
11. that's the time when suddenly my phone rosak like ^%&*% (cannot on at all! hmphhh!!!)
12. that's the time when my zits pop up here and there. zits are my no 1 enemies.
13. that's the time when suddenly my childhood friend create a group in facebook and most of my primary school's friends are there and they keep on chit-chating, remembering all those funny things we did, and remind me how i like to bully this girl named sitok. i wanna slap them altogether for reminding me, haha
14. that's the time when suddenly there was a new and hot and controversial issue in my family
15. that's the time when suddenly "the problem" poked me hardly. why why why?? i'm screwed.
16. that's the time when suddenly i became emotional.
17. that's the time when suddenly my neck sengal-sengal, lenguh-lenguh and a lil'bit pain. (dah masok 4 hari, i don't know why -__- )
18. that's the time when suddenly i missed my friends.
19. that's the time when  suddenly Nada and i jumped in lagha conversation about shopping, hows your skin? i want to try this and that after this, i want to go there after the exam, i want to buy this, and the conversation went on and on.
20. that's the time when suddenly everything piled up. 
21. that's the time when suddenly i have this ridiculous feeling, that i'm not supposed to have it at all. 

i have some more, but i forget what is it.

i'm listening to sheila on 7, torturing me. thank you.

next? NEOPLASIA

this

or this?

there's a point when you feel lonely.

like now.

25102010 - loji kumbahan air

tonight will be the last night, me, sleeping comfortly, deeply, sweetly in my room
before the final exams fever haunting me.
plus, tonight my room smells so nice, like bilik pengantin,haha.
(i bought an air freshener this evening!)


i hope this final exam fever won't be so horrible like previous previous previous semester.
usually people will tell you to get enough sleep before the exams, but seriously i cannot do that.
i feel like tak sedap hati when i sleep earlier.
i am a study-lewat-malam person.
so, sleeping earlier than usual is somehow doesn't work so much.
if u see me still awake at 5.00am, staring, memorizing, remembering, writing.
than it's normal. especially when the next paper is Dr.T's paper. faint.


when the last paper comes, when i take my bath, for sure this nausea will say hello to me.
if i am lucky enough, i vomit. this is true story. may be because of all the tense, the knowledge, the stress, the pressure, the everything folded like your small and large intestine, so my body cannot help it anymore. pop up anyway.


just to remind myself how this subjects will treat my nicely this upcoming days and nights:

• Pharmacology
• EAP
• Biostatistics
• Immunology
• Pathology

all these LOGY-LOGY thingy makes me crazy.

but, i do hope i have enough rest, less stress, less pressure, no more tears, 
and studying happily.


i swear, this semester is the toughest ever!
-__-"

02102010 - today is saturday

selamat datang diucapkan kepada bulan Oktober.
laju betul kau datang ye.
tak sempat aku nak bermesra-mesra, menghabiskan masa dengan abang-abang dan kakak-kakak kau.


bulan Oktober untuk tahun 2010 ni menggerunkan ye.
kerana bulan ini ada banyak perkara yang bakal berlaku..

berkayak di Tasik Bera

first time nak pergi tasik selain tasik uia, tasik Tasik Bandar, Tasik Titiwangsa 

IKOD'10 (IIUM Kuantan Open Day)

mari datang beramai-ramai. penat organize -__-"

Perhentian Island Challege

ala-ala holiday la,haha. tak pernah pergi Pulau Perhentian.

submit assignment + presentation

pharmacology

pathology

biostatistics

EAP!!

lab report

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FINAL EXAM!!!

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kehangatanya terasa

lebih hangat dari biasa

24092010

my friends are happy..

i'm happy for them..

i'm happy to see them happy..

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let me be the observer..

21092010 - my heart still pumping

assalamualaikum.


jantung saya masih ade bunyi dupdap.
masih hidup. alhamdulillah.


dengan ini, saya NURDHIYA IZYAN BINTI MOHD RADZA ingin mengucapkan

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

kepada seluruh umat Islam, sahabat handai, rakan taulan, sanak saudara, dan juga kepada diri sendiri.
saya minta maaf atas segala kesalahan yang telah saya lakukan. 


so, how's your raya?
i have great one with great family. =D


so many things to tell.
so little time to tell.
(dalam hati berkobar-kobar)


cuti raya kali ni, nampaknya ramai sahabat-handai yang ambil kesempatan betunang, bernikah.
berlumba-lumba korang eh, haha. tahniah2. saya doakan anda semua bahagia hingga ke akhirnya =)


saya bersyukur, walaupun dah 22tahun, masih dapat duit raya. hehe, gembire!


raya pertama di rumah baru, tempat baru.
so boring. tak ada kawan-kawan yang datang beraya pon. sebab tak ada kawan setempat. kawan lain tak nak datang. takpe2, tak kecil hati. terkilan je.
ada lah orang yang datang, kawan2 mama abah, tapi tak seramai dan semeriah dekat rumah lama.
oh, rinduuuu~~
sungguhpun begitu, raaaaamai kaum kerabat yang datang. setiap malam ada je orang yang tidur kt rumah.
(boleh tahan penat la =p )

hye abah!!! =D

sebenarnya, masih belum bersedia nak menjalani kehidupan sebagai pelajar. sungguh seronok menjalani kehidupan sebagai orang bercuti.

--> sume bende nk bagi last minute. hello, i have many other things to do too.

01092010 [23 Ramadhan] - tell me why....

baru saja lepas berbuka. sedikit tidak gembira bila kita dah order makanan jenis A, tapi bila nak makan, jenis H yang diberi. padahal sebelum berbuka, mulut dah terasa-rasa dah makanan jenis A yang diorder tadi. alahai pakcik/makcik, mengapaaaaa???

petang tadi dah habis exam biostatistics. yeay. (yeay yang kurang gembira/tak bersemangat)
habis sudah bebanan biostat. penat gila mengira!!sumtaktip!! no pulak besar-besar, banyak.
calculator pon tak muat nak kira. asyik tunduk je, sampai mengantuk, haha.

balik exam, borak-borak. lantas tertidur dengan LENA nya. bangun-bangun lagi 3 minit nak berbuka puasa.
kepuasan tidur selepas habis exam memang tak dapat nak diungkap. syok wooo!!

menjelang maghrib tadi, dah masuk 23 Ramadhan.
pernah dengar pasal malam Lailatulqadar?
malam yang paling istimewa, malam yang lebih baik dari 1000bulan.
antara 10 malam terakhir dalam bulan Ramadhan.
malam-malam ganjil.
mungkin juga malam ni kan? siapa yang dapat jumpa malam lailatulqadar ni memang syok la.
teringat pula amalan diri sendiri sepanjang Ramadhan ni.
sikit je. umpama habuk pemadam masa jawab exam biostat tadi je agaknya.
-___-

eh, perjuangan yang berkaitan dengan exam tak habis lagi.
esok quiz pathology pula. notes pon tak buka lagi =p

esok lagi satu exam eap. lama dah tak buat essay.
kepada vocab-vocabku, jangan la merajuk. jangan nak menyorok masa diperlukan nanti.
aku tau aku dah lama tak guna kau, haha.
kepada cik idea, sila lah datang dengan mencurah-curah.
hehe =)

daannnnn, hari ni dah masuk bulan September. cepatnya masa berlalu.


--> lusa nak balik dah, tapi baju tak basuh lagi.

---> cuba tengok sandal dekat atas tu. tak rasa hodoh ke? tak faham kenapa mesti nak design macam ni. siap ada misai. and it will cost u more than 3k! @____@

31082010 [22 Ramadhan] - merdeka!!

sometimes i don't understand why people being selfish.

i do understand in certain situation, that selfishness is needed.

but, haihhh!!

kau baik. tapi kadang-kadang perangai pelik kau membuatkan orang lain malas nak minta tolong dengan kau.

sebab kau ade sifat pelik yang tak ada kategori tu lah.

orang jadi tak selesa dengan kau.

mungkin ini pendapat aku seorang saja.

(mcm tak je, org lain pon ckp jugak,huhu)

kadang-kadang sebab sifat pelik kau tu, kawan kau sanggup berpanas berhujan.

nak mengalah dengan kau punya pasal, nak jaga hati kau punya pasal.

mungkin kau dah dididik dengan sifat sebegitu.

tapi, come on lah. kau hidup dalam komuniti.

kalau kau terus dengan perangai pelik kau tu, macam mana minda kau nk terbuka.

sekarang mungkin skop kecil lagi, tapi akan datang? masa kau dah kerja nanti? macam mana?

nak teruskan jugak ke sifat pelik kau tu?

aku rimas.

orang lain aku tak tahu. mungkin rimas, mungkin tak. mungkin juga aku je yang pelik sebab rasa macam tu.

hadoi, mengganggu mood biostatistics aku je kau ni lah.

--> peringatan untuk diri sendiri juga.

selamat hari kebangsaan!!!

---> rasanya zaman sekolah lagi mengajar erti sambutan kemerdekaan berbanding dah lepas sekolah.